"Hi Nyet", I stared at the laptop screen, the screen name looks familiar.
"Salam. Is that really you?" A second, then
"Heyy! It is me =) How are you? You didn't invite me to your wedding!" I didn't? Oh oh, didn't I? Did I really missed his name?
"I am sorry, I didn't realise it, it was such a hectic time for me." The reply was only after half an hour later. Thousands of miles away maybe, I can still see his expression through the screen.
"No worries. Congratulations" Not wanting to say anymore or less than necessary, I left it at that.
Its hard to believe, it has been almost two months now since The Wedding. Two months of bliss, two months of knowing another person intimately, two months of waking up to a loved one. Two months of not thinking of The Other One.
Actually it must have been more than two months if I really did forget to invite him to The Wedding. I closed my eyes, and I focus my mind to the image of us I have had since our college days. Yes, that was us, walking back from classes, talking and laughing. That was us teasing each other, sharing knowing looks. I smiled at those images and decided to leave him a note.
"Thank you for wishes, it means a lot coming from someone I loved deeply, and still love today. I will convey your wishes to my husband later. Buzz me when you are in town, we will be happy to see you." I didn't receive any reply, I didn't expect to receive any reply. If I was the one receiving such note, I would not reply either. We loved each other deeply, cared for each other deeply, it must hit a nerve to receive such note. But it must be said, he must know that I still love him, only circumstances have changed, the nature of love has changed. The love will always be there.
It was a closure that I didn't really need, really. I do hope it is a closure for him though, or rather for "us". The moment my husband said his vows on our wedding day, I have fallen hopelessly in love, smitten by him. Almost terrifying for the first few weeks of marriage, yet so delicious now.
I did love you so deeply. May Allah bless you with such love again, even more I hope.
"Salam. Is that really you?" A second, then
"Heyy! It is me =) How are you? You didn't invite me to your wedding!" I didn't? Oh oh, didn't I? Did I really missed his name?
"I am sorry, I didn't realise it, it was such a hectic time for me." The reply was only after half an hour later. Thousands of miles away maybe, I can still see his expression through the screen.
"No worries. Congratulations" Not wanting to say anymore or less than necessary, I left it at that.
Its hard to believe, it has been almost two months now since The Wedding. Two months of bliss, two months of knowing another person intimately, two months of waking up to a loved one. Two months of not thinking of The Other One.
Actually it must have been more than two months if I really did forget to invite him to The Wedding. I closed my eyes, and I focus my mind to the image of us I have had since our college days. Yes, that was us, walking back from classes, talking and laughing. That was us teasing each other, sharing knowing looks. I smiled at those images and decided to leave him a note.
"Thank you for wishes, it means a lot coming from someone I loved deeply, and still love today. I will convey your wishes to my husband later. Buzz me when you are in town, we will be happy to see you." I didn't receive any reply, I didn't expect to receive any reply. If I was the one receiving such note, I would not reply either. We loved each other deeply, cared for each other deeply, it must hit a nerve to receive such note. But it must be said, he must know that I still love him, only circumstances have changed, the nature of love has changed. The love will always be there.
It was a closure that I didn't really need, really. I do hope it is a closure for him though, or rather for "us". The moment my husband said his vows on our wedding day, I have fallen hopelessly in love, smitten by him. Almost terrifying for the first few weeks of marriage, yet so delicious now.
I did love you so deeply. May Allah bless you with such love again, even more I hope.
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