Ramadhan Love

I still remember the first Ramadhan with my husband. We were married a few months before Ramadhan and I had thought that come Ramadhan we were already familiar with each other, living together, sleeping together, being there for each other.

Or so we thought.

Ramadhan was so different, so special that it felt like we just got married on the eve of Ramadhan! Suddenly, right after Maghrib prayers, I felt like a blushing bride. I had no idea why, or whether my husband felt it too. Fifteen minutes before Isya', he asked me whether I was ready to go to the Masjid for Taraweeh. I nodded and quickly changed while he waited in the car. I must have been unusually quiet in the car, as just before we entered the Masjid, he asked me whether everything was okay. Not able to meet his eyes, I nodded.

"Oh no, we are not entering the Masjid until you tell me what is wrong." I looked at him and smiled.

"Nothing is wrong. It just feels so different... since its..."

"Ramadhan?" Oh Alhamdulillah! He felt it too, its just not me. It was such a relieve!

"Let's go in now. I will see you here later. Make dua for us, that Allah will bless us with this wonderful feeling of togetherness every Ramadhan of our lives", He smiled, and I couldn't help feeling a little bit more in love with this man.

Since that moment, Ramadhan has been very special. In some ways, I feel that we have made Ramadhan special. Pre-Ramadhan, we will prepare ourselves for the holy month. My husband always made sure that admistrative matters were taken care of before Ramadhan so that we may focus ourselves to fully experience Ramadhan.

Grocery list will be drawn up not only for Ramadhan, but the early days of Aidilfitri as well so that the last few days of Ramadhan won't see us running around preparing for Aidilfitri. Both cars will be sent for servicing, household changes that we want to make for Aidilfitri will also be done pre-Ramadhan. We also do our clothes shopping and such before Ramadhan.

The trait that I love most about my husband is that, although he supports some families for Aidilfitri, he has always been more concern on how their Ramadhan will be. Will they have enough on their tables for Iftar and Suhoor. Will they have enough to not worry to perform their ibadah in Ramadhan? My outlook changed after my marriage to this man over his perspectives on life.

I would also like to think that he has changed after our marriage. As a single woman, I used to spend Ramadhan visiting parents and relatives. First day of Iftar were always at my parents, weekends were always with my parents, esclusively reserved for them. I used to drive my parents to visit my gradmother too over the weekend. Visiting aunts and uncles, special gathering with friends. My husband loves this side of me. We have been spending every weekend at our parents. No business trips away from family. Long drives to visit elderly relatives. Flying in to visit my grandmother.

Alhamdulillah, every Ramadhan I fall a little bit more in love, oh who am I kidding, I fall in love all over again. I believe it is Ramadhan blessings that Allah has bestowed upon us. Alhamdulillah!